My Birthday!!!

Posted: July 23, 2011 in Books, Brain Waves, Uncategorized

So today is my birthday & when I opened the Bonhoeffer devotional I’m reading I got an awesome surprise – today’s selection was “Who Am I”! I discovered this poem back in high school and I have been in awe of it ever since. The poem was written by Bonhoeffer while he was imprisoned in a death camp by the Nazis for his involvement in several plots to assassinate Hitler. He wrote this about a month before he was executed for his “crimes”.  I don’t know exactly why but I found it powerful as a teenager and I still find it powerful and humbling today…

“Who am I?”
By Dietrich Bonhoeffer (March 4, 1945)

Who am I? They often tell me
I would step from my cell’s confinement
calmly, cheerfully, firmly,
like a squire from his country-house.

Who am I? They often tell me
I would talk to my warders
freely and friendly and clearly,
as though it were mine to command.

Who am I? They also tell me
I would bear the days of misfortune
equably, smilingly, proudly,
like one accustomed to win.

Am I then really all that which other men tell of?
Or am I only what I know of myself?
restless and longing and sick, like a bird in a cage,
struggling for breath, as though hands were
compressing my throat,
yearning for colours, for flowers, for the voices of birds,
thirsting for words of kindness, for neighborliness,
trembling in expectation of great events,
powerlessly trembling for friends at an infinite distance,
weary and empty at praying, at thinking, at making,
faint, and ready to say farewell to it all?

Who am I? This or the other?
Am I one person today, and tomorrow another?
Am I both at once? A hypocrite before others,
and before myself a contemptibly woebegone weakling?
Or is something within me still like a beaten army,
fleeing in disorder from victory already achieved?

Who am I? They mock me, these lonely questions of mine.
Whoever I am, Thou knowest, O God, I am Thine.

–Dietrich Bonhoeffer, “Who am I?” in Letters & Papers From Prison (New York: Touchstone, 1953/1997), 347-8.

This is the complete text of the Letter To The Editor I wrote today… I doubt it will be good enough for print but I thought I’d put it online for your viewing pleasure!!

I am writing because as a Christian, an ordained minister and a generally sensible human being I was bewildered and dismayed by the furor raised over statements made by a relatively unknown and unwelcome minister from the USA.

Why bewildered?  Who is Harold Camping that anyone should value what he said?  I only know of Harold Camping because of his previous Rapture claims and because of my association with a minister/counselor who spent a lot of time and effort counseling and healing lives that this man’s nonsense had destroyed.  The sheer amount of human wreckage that this man has made in Jesus’ name should be enough to have him chased from any pulpit on this planet.

Why dismayed?    Because in much of the reporting I read & watched this was hailed as a “Christian” event.  Lumping Christians together with these people is like lumping all Muslims in with Terrorists.  The media makes a great effort to separate the worst of the Muslim faith from its best and I was disappointed by how many media organizations chose not to do the same for Christians at this time. 

Harold Camping and others like Fred Phelps and the ilk of the Westboro Baptist “church” only exist because people pay attention to them.  Giving them time to speak their blasphemous and offensive diatribes only gives them strength and coming up with clever protests (like making donations in their names to ministries they hate) only fuels those fires.  These are that special breed of person upon whom reverse psychology has no effect because they cannot grasp it.  They will never learn the error of their ways and your attention only strengthens their resolve – like a child who thrives on negative attention and so continues to act out. 

Proof positive of this:  Harold was back in the media Monday announcing that it was his math that was off and the end is coming in October of this year.  I got news for you Harold something about you is indeed horribly off base and has been for a long time – but it’s not your math.


I suck at this… but I shall get better!

A Year in Preview

Posted: February 4, 2011 in Brain Waves, I Lack Discipline

So here it is… an admission of my deep dark secret:  I lack discipline.  I am about 230 pounds.  I overeat and under exercise.  I sit at my computer to do work and I just putter around the interwebz.  I sit to read for 15 minutes and can stretch it into hours.  I have attempted at least 2 correspondence courses in order to finish my Bachelors degree and failed to get beyond the first lesson in either of them.  I am easily distracted and overly busy attempting much and accomplishing many pockets of not as much as I set out to do.  And I hate it.

So this year I am going to set out to change that. 

I am going to take a year and train myself into being more disciplined.  And as part of this I am going to discipline myself to writing here on this underused & underviewed blog.  I am going to set out to try and write as close to daily as possible – not because I think anyone is reading – simply because it’s a way to teach myself some discipline.  

So here I go…

Posted: February 3, 2011 in Brain Waves, I Lack Discipline, Music

 

This is my new theme song…  Not only does it chastise me toward a more disciplined lifestyle (THERE IS NO BATHROOM!) but it asks the burning question “Who is your daddy and what does he do?” 

WHO IS HE?  WHAT DOES HE DO?  TELL ME!

A Troubling Question!

Posted: August 31, 2010 in Brain Waves, Church

Sent: Monday, August 30, 2010 9:06 AM

To: Jeremiah Pacey 

Hi Jere,
I’ve been reading about Moses and the Pharaoh (Exodus 5-14 – Jeremiah) and I am troubled.  Did God lie?  He’s says he’s holy, and I do believe Him — but, God told Moses to tell Pharaoh to let the Israelites to go into the desert 3 DAYS to worship Him.  What he really meant was, “We’re leaving Egypt and not coming back”.  Was this a lie?  Certainly God manipulated Pharaoh (He hardened his heart) several times.  Maybe Pharaoh and the Egyptians had it coming.  Maybe God wanted to make a point — big time.  But did he lie?  Thanks for thinking about this before the lightning bolts scorch my butt for daring to question this.

Perplexed & Troubled 

Hi Perplexed & Troubled

I am very sorry that this is a day later than I had promised… my wife was not feeling well and so my evening ended up overloaded with my kids.

As for daring to ask questions – fear not!  God is not angered by our questions or daring to think the unthinkable, it’s when we choose to persist in asking questions He has already answered that we get into trouble.

In answer to what I perceive to be your over-arching concern:  Is God a liar and a trickster?  

Short answer: Nope.

Long Answer: (deep breath)

     Was God lying when He said He only wanted the Israelites to worship Him for 3 days and then they’d come back?  No.  He was proving a point.  Pharaoh was unwilling to bow to God in a small way.  This was an opportunity for Pharaoh to quit while he was ahead and no one was hurt, but Pharaoh wouldn’t because he was the worst kind of dictator and iron fisted ruler.   Pharaoh was more than a political title – it was a religious one.  The Pharaoh was god incarnate on Earth in the eyes of the Egyptians.  So we are dealing with more than an instance of God telling some guy “this is what we’re gonna do” he’s telling a guy who thinks he is god “I’m God, you’re not, and this is what we’re gonna do”. 

Pharaoh was a bully with a deep-rooted god complex.  Look at Pharaoh’s response to them not working for 1 day while Moses & Aaron make their request - Pharaoh ramps it up makes them work harder and under more adverse conditions.  He is not just building pyramids and monuments he is seeking to break these people and make them see him as god – no more of this YAHWEH foolishness.  If Pharaoh let them go for just 3 days he would no longer be God in the eyes of the Hebrews, in the eyes of Egypt & even in his own eyes… and he would not accept that.

    In fact, if the 10 Plagues were indeed direct attacks on the powers of the different members of the Egyptian pantheon - then look and marvel at the arrogance of Pharaoh.  He refused to yield and give God authority until the final plague (death of the 1st born son) which was the one that attacked his position directly.  Pharaoh held himself higher than every other god in Egypt and only relented in the face of one who was inarguably more powerful than him.

    Now as for the whole “God manipulated Pharaoh by hardening his heart” idea;  go back and look at the story again and read it thinking about Pharaoh’s actions in light of what I wrote above.  God did not manipulate Pharaoh in the sense of forcing him to do something he would normally not have done.  Pharaoh in this story is shown to be the kind of unreasoning and unyielding tyrant who needed little or no provocation to go down the road he went down.  Remember it all started with a simple request for a 3 day weekend & Pharaoh’s response that stopping for 1 day was far too much!  God did not have to manipulate Pharaoh, Pharaoh already had a predilection for stupid choices!  

    Now as a further explanation, in the OT Jewish mindset nothing, absolutely nothing, I mean not a single tiny thing, NOTHING happened apart from God’s will.  (In Job, even Satan can only do what God wills.)  To the Hebrews telling and hearing this story, everything happened and happens and will happen only because it is God’s will.  So the statement “God hardened Pharaoh’s heart” is less a statement of God’s maliciousness and manipulation and more a declaration of God’s power and Pharaoh’s utter impotence.  Even when Pharaoh was at what he thought was his most powerful and defiant, shaking his fist and railing against YAHWEH, even then YAHWEH was still in total control; even then Pharaoh had all the authority and power over God that a mewling newborn has over his parents: he can kick and scream all he wants but he can’t go anywhere until they pick him up and carry him.  As proof of this look at the end of the story:  the Hebrews are gone away, set free by Pharaoh himself, and as soon as God has left the room (so to speak) Pharaoh reverts back to his bully mindset and decides to send out his armies to attack unarmed families walking through the desert.  (At this time the Hebrews still wouldn’t have had a chance to develop any sort of military or anything but the most minimal sort of defences.  This likely would not have included anything but the most rudimentary weapons – remember they were slaves in Egypt and you didn’t hand a slave a sword – especially right after you set them free, and definitely not ones that were leaving on the terms and in the numbers that the Hebrews were leaving Egypt.)  Pharaoh was unwilling to submit himself to God or even the idea of someone with more power and authority than himself and his refusal to accept a lesser place before God is what killed Him.

            God is not a manipulator or a liar.  He did not force Pharaoh into doing anything Pharaoh was unwilling or incapable of doing.  God sought to deal with Pharaoh decently, but Pharaoh refused to accept any higher authority than himself.  So God simply proved Himself to be God… in spite of Pharaoh’s beliefs about his own position in the universe.  It is a rightfully troubling story.  It should not be troubling because of how we perceive God’s behaviour, but because of what it tells us about how far our own foolishness can take us if we refuse to yield to the “One Who is Higher than You and I”.

            Please send back your thoughts, especially if you don’t feel like I answered your questions or I have given you even more troublesome questions!

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This was blogged as my daughter and I watched “The Road Warrior”… Pharaoh would have been wise to take The Humungus’ advice to “just walk a-way”

EXTEND Your Faith

Posted: March 31, 2010 in Brain Waves, Church, Family

             Over the next 9 weeks my church and I will be seeking to do something as a contrast to Lent.  I am not anti-Lent, but I want to celebrate the resurrection alnog with the Crucifixion. (Yes I got this idea from N.T. Wright’s book “Surprised By Hope – read it if you haven’t already – and I hope he will not be offended for me running with it.)  I wanted to challenge them to be excited about this new life Christ has given us through His resurrection.     I am calling it EXTEND as in extend yourself, stretch, reach out, push your limits.  It is simply a call to celebrate newness by embracing and trying something new for 42 days.

             I want to challenge my congregation to sacrifice, not just by giving up and letting go, but also by taking up and surrendering to.  Sacrifice can be about trying something new in your life and giving your all to that thing.  That might mean letting go of other stuff, but this is not letting go for the sake of letting go.  It is letting go the way an athlete, performer or scholar devote themselves to their field of choice: they make sacrifices for the sake of something bigger and more important.

            I am not asking anyone to do anything that extreme.  I simply want to encourage my people to step out and try something different (coming out to Prayer Meetings!), something they might not have done before (teach Sunday school!) or even something they have done, but got off track with (eating dinner as a family!).  We have been given a new life through Christ’s sacrifice and resurrection; but far too often we settle for living it by going back to our old life with a better attitude… sometimes!  Let’s commit to stop settling for a life so very ordinary and for 42 days as individuals, couples, families or a group commit to doing something different and shaking up our lives a little bit!     

           So I will pass on the challenge to anyone reading this – EXTEND yourself!

Apologies

Posted: March 31, 2010 in Uncategorized

I know I have been a lazy blogger so far – but I beg mercy in light of my schooling! It is almost April and thus I am almost done my semester and so I will be a better blogger from now on!

Facebook Updates!!

Posted: March 8, 2010 in Uncategorized

Hey people!  I can now post my blog updates on Facebook!  You can read it there on my profile page or click on “Read Original Post” to go to my blog site!

Father Zakarias Boutros

Posted: March 5, 2010 in Church, Culture, Movies

He’s a Coptic Priest in exile from Egypt who has become Islam’s Public Enemy #1 because of the sheer number of Muslims he is challenging with Jesus Christ – it is awesome and inspiring to listen to him talk!

I discovered this man while watching a film called “Inside The Revolution” … all I can say was his segment was short but absolutely blew me away!

I have linked to a video clip of his testimony and the segment featuring him from the movie.

Take 15 mins and check them out!